June 3, 2013

A World Upside Down


I have been reflecting today on how different my life will be a week from now.  
A week from right now, I will be living in a new town (moving from Bloomington to Normal), I will be renting a new apartment, and I will be close to the end of my first day in a new career.  

WAIT A MINUTE!

Ever have that feeling where your life is completely upside down?  That's kind of how I feel.  It's the best feeling in the world in this case.  I'm ready for my boxes to be unpacked and the world of childcare to be behind me.  

I told my kids today that I am leaving.  As I predicted, my little Alex (and bestie in room 6) had a look of shock and sadness on her little face.  "Why?" she asked.  I told them where I was going and immediately they all got excited because I will be working at State Farm... where almost ALL of their parents work.  However that excitement quickly passed and Alex was attached to me all morning.  She kept telling me she didn't want me to go.  "No, my Miss Haley.  You can't go."  

It melted my heart.  But I didn't cry.  Normally I get emotional with goodbyes.  Maybe Friday will be a different story.  But I really don't think so.  I think the lack of tears was a sign that this is the right move.  I'm ready.  I'm ready to move on, start over, and explore new things.  

I've had a hard time getting excited about all the change because it IS all very overwhelming.  I think I'm also dreading that something is going to fall through or go wrong.  But the closer I get to being able to put this profession behind me, the more excited I get.

If you had asked me 10 years ago what I'd thought I'd be doing now, I never thought I'd say I would not be teaching.  But as the years have gone by and I have seen the teaching world from different angles and experienced different jobs, I've realized that teaching is something really special.  You have to be CALLED to do it.  Not everyone can do it and do it well.  I have decided to take my new career path with hope and confidence!  If I ever feel called back to teaching it would have to be with older kids.  High school or college maybe.  But I'm taking my dad's advice and not looking too far ahead.  I'm looking right in front of me.  Upside down or not. 

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