Hope all you readers are doing well and getting excited for the holidays! I've been away from the blog lately for a few reasons, the main one being that I didn't have much to write about. Things are beautiful in Michigan. I'm loving my surroundings, slowly making new friends, and taking daily steps to get out of my comfort zone. I've really enjoyed exploring my new city and have already made lists of things to do with visitors!
So it came to me today as I was driving to my new church. The first day I had to wear a winter coat that was much looser last winter. It had me incredibly frustrated. Perhaps that's why I've avoided the blog.
I've gained an unknown amount of weight since the summer. How it started isn't all that important, but a series of life events, changes, and obstacles led me to where I am now. For a while it had me very upset, self conscious, and even gave me the sense that people would see me as weak or a fraud.
Over time I came to accept that the events of the past six months do not undo what I accomplished last year and earlier this year. At least not completely. Sure some of my clothes don't fit and my Insanity workouts are harder after slacking on them for so long. The truth is though that I'm not starting from square one. I accomplished a lot this year. My first half-marathon, meaningful conversations with people, exploration of new areas of fitness and health, to name a few. All incredibly important. And now I'm here, in my new home, settled, and back in a fitness routine after a hiatus due to the stress of uprooting and starting over. Working out again five days a week and keeping my home a safe food zone. I still have my challenges and have come to terms that disordered eating is something I will deal with for a very long time.
So where do you go from here when you find yourself in a place of roadblocks and set backs? The first step for me was accepting myself as I am. Accepting my strength, faults, beauty, and missteps along the way because they all make up my story. From here the plan is simply to persevere. I take one day at a time. I remember what I'm capable of. I continue to pursue new things and new concepts of health and fitness. I do my best to leave excuses behind me and use all that I know to better my health.
As a side note, I decided this week that coaching through Beachbody just wasn't for me. I had beeing thinking about it since the move and just decided that the self marketing, social media stuff, and product plugging just doesn't fit my lifestyle and my personality. I continue to use my Insanity workouts and still recommend some of those other programs. But for me, my fitness and health journey is one I prefer to just do for me.
So anyway, I hope that in the new year and a new decade in my life (30 eeeeeeek!) I will find my healthiest and happiest self. So many good things lay ahead in this next year.